:)
i'm back from my genting trip.
my legs are in pain now.
:(
walk too much.
i found out that weather forecasts are fake.
they say 020908 wunn rain,
but,
it rained.
first day,
which was 020908,
went to theme park at 3pm,
it rained.
than weather forecasts says 030908 will have thunderstorm.
on 030908,
went down to kl,
it was a big big sun
grrrrr.
anyway,
bought ralph laurens shirt for dear and me.
and the perfume smells nice.
:)
bought lactose shoes also.
ACTUALLY,
Crocodile and Lactose de shirt have crocodiles.
just that Crocodile's crocodile face inwards,
Lactose's crocodile face outwards.
my dad was wearing Crocrodile shirt that day,
we went to Isetan and saw Lactose.
than i asked my dad if his shirt is fake Lactose.
he say he dunno.
so actually,
he was wearing Crocodile,
nort fake Lactose.
grr.
040908.
i was very very tired.
bought a white polo tee.
it's nice.
:)
and cheap i guess.
wait and wait and wait for the bus.
lousy bus.
than gort this family in front of us.
the daughter adjust her seat until so behind.
the youger son make so much noise.
the older son keep walk here walk there,
spit saliva,
throw shoe.
that's their ah gong bus i guess.
no manners.

i've updated after 2 months plus.
we had just celebrated our 5th month.
:)
i love him

our third month is coming!!!
haha.
4 more days.

爱一个人不知要接受它的现在，
还包括他的未来和过去。

过去对我来说只是一场回忆。
我们的未来是由我们来制造的。

:)

havent been blogging for a long long time.
haha.
i had told dear all about my past.
everything.
all about cq and jeremy and stuffs.
it would be hard for him to get over it.
cos i hit the nail.
for the next 1 or 2 years,
it would be hard for the both of us to get over this matter.
we need time for this.
many many time,
this is not any 芝麻绿豆的事.
:(
this few days was pretty alright.
thinking of buying gifts for him,
我亏欠他太多了
small little things i do to him everyday,
affects how long it takes for him to forget about the matter.
morever, it wasn't a pleasant matter.
i could only make the best of what i have,
for him.
the love between us somehow had been affected over the matter.
trying to not let the matter linger in his mind anymore.

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:)
i made him angry today.
our conversation went like this.
me: dear, do u think we should stop contact for awhile?
him: why??!!
i kept quiet.
him: can u please tell me?
me: i dunno.
him: why must i always force u to tell me the truth? i give u one day to think about this? if u are serious about it, than it's the end.
silence for a long long time.
me: u angry arh?
him: yes, very.
me: orh.
him: can we meet up now?
me: ok.
than we met up.
and talked about all the stuffs.
and we talked through!
:)
it was because of jeremy's words again.
but it's ok now.
let the past be the past.
turning back to see the past is so tiring cos u would have to turn ur head.
looking forward is much easier.
cos u dunn have to turn ur head!

this post is wanted by my beloved darhdarh.
:)
i'm happy today.
:)

to darhdarh,

i'm nort fake.
i'm real.
i'm nort hiding anything.
you are nort my friend,
you are my darhdarh.
don't be dissapointed or sad.
i love you.
iwould expain the flyer thing to you on monday.
:)

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i went to collect my WINNIE THE POOH
after jogging around the canal.
my aunt asked is i found it in the canal.
:)
i love this POOH.

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we celebrated our one month aniversary this day.
i had never had such a nice one month celebration before.
NEVER.
went to his house to take a look at my present.
haha.
intended to bring it along,
but it's too big.
:)
my dear knows me too well.
he gave me a huge WINNIE THE POOH.
after that,
we wore our couple polo tee and head off to marina square.
watched 'the forbidden kingdom'.
:)
we both laughed out loud.
that was the second movie we watched.
after the movie,
we walked to the singapore flyer.
hoping to catch the sunset.
but the sky was too cloudy.
:(
as long as i'm with him,
i'm happy.
:)
the place is like an airport.
need to scan the bags,
than admission all that also like airport.
haha.
:)
our capsule was quite empty.
a family of three, a middle-aged couple and us.
took many many photos,
the feeling of happiness is still not there.
that terrible sentence still linger in my mind.
i'm trying to forget about it,
give me time.
:)
after the flyer,
we walked back to marina square with my terrible blistered feet.
:@
thinking about what to eat.
there were queues everywhere.
in the end,
we ate swensen's.
:)
we made an agreement.
every 4 months,
we would eat a nice meal out.
so as to nort spend so much money.
he had spent alot this month.
just for this month,
i'm touched.
after dinner,
we went to the singapore river,
outside the esplanade.
wanted to walk to fullerton hotel,
but it's too difficult.
so,
we sat there and counted stars.
there wasn't much.
he was too tired.
and so we walked to the mrt station through esplanade underpass.
:)
it was pretty.
the time was 10.20pm.
i was very very tired.
and dozed off in the mrt.
leaned on the shoulder which was with me for the past one month.
i felt secured.
he walked me home,
although he was very very tired.
our one month.
:)
was nice and sweet.

i love my DEAR JARED.
please dunn disturb us.
:)

are u happy today?
i've been asking this question this morning.
and people say i crazy.
:(
yes,
of course i'm happy.
:)
cos it's the 8th day since 170308!!
i'm so happy.
yes,
i've never been into something so sweet.
even if it's 8 days.

i'm in good mood thes few days.
haha.
i'm nort going to be angry.
:)
because i'm in good mood.
and i'm happy!
being happy keeps ur mind fresh and ur wrinkles gone.
so u must stay happy!

haha.
i blogged.
:)
i updated my blog.
:)
yes,
after 8 tiring months.
i've survived it though.
:)
life was much better after 170308.
:)
i love him more than anyone else.
it's different from last time alright.
last time was the past anyway.
and all the wrongdoings shall be erased away.
i have a much better life now.
and i shall lead the better life.
:)

hey.
i am blogging in school.
anyway,
i would be staying over at darhdarh's house for a few night due to some bad things that happened at home.
my family has broken into pieces and i caused it all.
i should be the one to end it right now.
if i were to leave,
i hope the family would be back to normal than.
i'm sorry for my parents and my sister.
sorry.
to my cousin,
i am sorry for yesterday.
but i dunn wish to talk about it anymore.
just do what i told you last night.
he will understand.
:)

school had been very busy for the past three weeks.
many unhappy stuffs are hapenning.
what is this world becoming.
hai,
i can't be bothered with all those friend and dunn friend stuffs.
i did that when i am primary 4,
not when i am 14.
please grow up.

i had made up my mind,
to a perfect picture.
i am going to erase you off my mind.
the love towards you had long be gone.
so what's the point of keeping in contact.
once a few months somemore.
one shot waste so much of my sms-es.
grr.
i'm fustrated with you
and how you handle that bitch.
if this carries on,
both of you please faster get married and imigrate to outer space.
the sight of you and that bitch irks me.
even the name itself is enough.
bitch is what i call her,
basturd is what i call you.
may the basturd and bitch get married and give birth to a slut or so.
this is what the basturd and bitch deserves.

happy new year to all.
happybirthday to me.
;)
i'm touched for what darhdarh did for me.
and for the whole class who sang birthday song to me.
thank you a million.
this had had been the most wonderful birthday for me.

a week had passed.
it's a very tiring week.
to think that i actually prepared for a stage performance.
yes,
this was the first time.
and i'm very nervous at that point of time.
130108 is another big day.

school had been very busy.
i wrote a letter to myself.
and read it everyday.
and that keeps me going.

两年后的我，
还依然等着你回来。
两年前的我，
虽年少无知，
但还是知道你起初是爱我的。
如今等了两年，
我想彼此的爱已不在。
我不希望我们一直保持着这种关系。
我希望的反而是当初那种关系。
若有一天你终于明白我要的是什么，
我希望这种狼狈为奸的关系会就此结束。

to my darhdarh,
thank you for all you did for my birthday.
cheer up.
show to the others that you could be strong.
don't let them have the chance to laugh at you.
no matter what happens,
i would be there for you.

Saturday, 1 December 2007



my gastric has a big problem.

which i'm not sure what is it.

it just hurts everytime.

grr.

throat inflamed again.

can i be more healthy?

help to cook in the afternoon.

i cut the vegetables.

in the end, it looked like a flower.

=)

to the person who always bring a mouth here.

who do you think you are?

why must people cook especially for you only?

for goodness sake,

you are the only person eating ok.

please be disgraced of yourself.

Friday, 30 November 2007



my nail pronouces its death at 4.30pm.



i havent got it a proper coffin.

hai.

i live happily ever after without the dead nail.

=)

today was a boring day.
woke up at 12pm.
gastric pain is back.
grr.
went to take medicine and watched vcd till now.

what i want from u is just a simple smile.
i just hope that you would turn your head and look at me once.
seriously,
i foolishly believed what u said.
i understand how busy you are.
but,
at least settle that bitch beside you first.
you can always use the same stupid excuse.
if she wants to commit suicide.
let her be.
you admit yourself that you don't love her.
so what is it now?
you can simply ask me to shoo off.
but you take months to shoo that bitch off.
one day when you get married with her,
dont blame me for being the third party.
that bitch was the one who came in between us.
ask that bitch to shoo off instead.
how long u expect me to wait?
i have limited patience also.
please,
at least give me an immediate answer first.

i am back to singapore!

=)

the trip was alright.

i sacrificed the class chalet because of the disneyland.

and the disneyland was a total disspointment.

haiz.

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woke up early in the morning.

was very tired.

the poor baby cried like hell when my sister and i went into the departure hall.

poor thing.

than boarded the plane.

CX741.

=)

the lunch was too oily.

before we eat:



after we finish the meal:




had haagen-dazs ice cream on board also.

after 3hours plus.
finally reached hongkong.
i simply hate the tour guide.
his cant pronouce properly and the way he speak make my gastric hurts.
grr.
our first and second day hotel:




the bed was kind of,
rocky.
haha.
and my sister fell off her bed.

and played with all the handprints on the way.

went to the floating restaurant.

and saw andy lau's boat there.

this is where fishermen live:



went to victoria's peak.

took a photo of the toilet.

notice their spelling.




many people tried throwing the coin into the fish mouth at the temple.

they believe that it will make their wishes come true.

stupidly, i followed them.




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finally going to disneyland.

the hotel was fabulous.

big beds, big space.






unpack everything and head off to the theme park.




the theme park is way too small from what i expect.

took photos with the characters, played 3 rides and went to shopping.

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last day at disneyland.

i would miss this place.

tour around the hotel and looked at all the cars and so.

headed off to **** hotel.

had to leave pur baggage at the lobby first cause the isn't any rooms.

wtf.

walked around the area.

to their so called 'far east plaza'

and ladies' market.

their clothes are very very cheap.

did nort managed to buy the superman, elmo and cookie monster shirt for darhdarh there.

bought one rolling stones shirt for her instead.
....

at the ladies' market end,

i smell 'fragrance'

of cos is the smelly tofu lah.

no one dares to eat that.

went back to the **** hotel.

it's the worst hotel of all.

went in and have a very eerie feeling.

than the bathroom lightbulb burnt.

my cousin and i decided to sleepover with my sis and aunt.

at least it's safer.

placed our baggage in the room and left for wife's biscuit and roast goose.

roast goose was marvellous.

it's so tiny and nice.

i dunno how to eat the wife's biscuit though.

pack all the neccsary items and went to my sis and aunt's room.

bathed with my sister cos i still have the wierd feeling.

whole body was aching.

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after squeezing the bed with my sister.

the achings gort worse.

went back to my own room and found out that the tv is also nort working.

wtf.

head off to airport for flight.

dunn really wish to go back to s'pore actually.

s'pore have too much thing for me to think.

reached home, called darhdarh.
unpack everything.
and received chunqing's msg he sent like 4 days ago.
so replied him.
and talk talk.
normal stuffs.
=)

Friday, 9 November 2007

went to see the doctor.
gastric pain have been acting up again.
and my toe.
what a bad holidays.
i would be leaving for hongkong on 18november.
no 108 chalet for me.
and i may not be blogging that often nowadays.
=)
call me on my handphone if you really concern me and want to know about me.

if you were to be here when all these things happen to me,
i would had finally realised the taste of happiness.
but unfortunately,
you were not with me all along.
and i guess,
i would never had the taste of happiness.
i would never know how is it like to have your love and care.
i guess, this is what the god really wants.
this is what god hopes to see.
from the day i lied to you,
it all depends on god after all.
if god allows us to see each other,
i guess that is the time where by god really gave up on us,
the time where by god let us choose our own path and stop controlling us
and i guess,
we would never have the chance to meet anymore.
god would never give up on us.
i believe god would always control us,
till our last breath,
god would still not let us see each other.
if god knows that you really love me,
and i really love you,
i think we would not end up like this today.
i finally knew the truth.
from this moment on,
i shall also give up on you.
since god does not want to give up.
and you already gave up on me.
the only way to lessen everyone's burden,
is for me to give up on you.

Saturday, 27 October 2007

the door of the wardrobe dropped on my toe nail.
blood had been splashing out like fountain.
went to changi airport with a bandaged toe.

Friday, 26 October 2007

it was the last day of school.

it was a day filled with laughter and all.

but someone's laughter is way too exaggerating.

laugh till the whole class can hear.

mr tan actually don't believe i join choir.

grr.

so had normal boring lessons for the whole day.



went to suki sushi with darhdarh, JIAJIA, laylin and wanying after school.

the sushi were all ok.

we ate a total of 26 plates of coloured plates,

2 white plates,

and darhdarh and JIAJIA ate soft shell crab.

it costs $53.45 all together.

darhdarh and i had been talking to that male manager.

haha.



walked around AMK hub.

there's this guy whom say" nobody want to listen to me talk."

so i stopped and listen to him talking.

in the end,

he wanted a donation of $10.

i just walked away,

and he gave me a sian diao face.

-.-
saw students doing a survey.
darhdarh and i were asked to do one.
so we did it,
and left our particulars there.
wonder if its safe over there.
hmm.

Monday, 22 October 2007

had choir audition after school.
and i PASSED.
=)
finally.
but darhdarh still havent got her confirmation.
all the teachers have no motivation to do things at all.
=(

i am going to paint my room red during the holidays.
and mum allowed me to design my own room.
=)
i've finally found my goal in life.

Sunday, 21 October 2007

just a normal boring sunday.

felled asleep at 3am this morning and woke up at 8am.
i can't get into a good sleep this 2 days.
he had been calling and pestering for a patch.
i don't know how should i tell him my decision.
i didn't mean to hurt him.
and i really want him to find a better girl than me.
i seriously hope so.
both of us had an unhappy relationship before.
what will happen if we were to be together again but end up getting hurt?
what he had done for me last time,
i appreciate that.
i one did something sorry to him.
and i don't see the reason why he wants us to patch.
what i did to him is not the appropriate way to repay how he treat me,
but it is the way for me to hurt him much more than how he had been hurted.
i don't wish to hurt him any further,
and i truly bless him to find a faithful girlfriend to repay the way he treat her,
and at the same time,
healing the hurt i made in his heart.
i'm sorry for what i did.

Friday, 19 October 2007

had school as usual.
watched videos all the long.
to all teachers,
'school of rock' is a boring and nonsensical show.
please kindly don't show us anymore.

mr soon gave out science paper.
i am satisfied with what i have.
=)

messaged jeremy for something.
it was raining heavily after school.
i forgotten to bring my umbrella.
was in a rush to meet my sister,
as i agreed to go out with her today after so many weeks.

reached home at around 2.30pm.
head off to bugis at 3pm.
hadmy lunch there.
and sis bought a watch.
i am going to buy one soon.
=)

jeremy said he would also be going to bugis.
so i said:
"if we have fate, we will meet there."
and we really met there.
what a coinsidence.
maybe it was fate,
or is it purely coinsidence?
yea,
i saw him.
gave him merely a smile and thats all.
i don't have the urge to patch back with him.
but i felt that something was lost in my life for the past 3 months.

bought a pouch and head off to vivo.
went to vivo to buy powder for the rabbit.
and we ate the donuts.
it doesn't taste that nice.
it's cold and ...

reached home at about 7pm.
ate instant noodles after that.

Thursday, 18 October 2007

happy 3rd month without a boyfriend.
for the past 3 years,
this is the first time.

don't act in front of everyone else.
you just want people to pity you right?
oh god,
i won't be the one pitying you or fufilling your wish from now.
you aint happy with what i do to you,
than go talk bad about me in front of others is it?
i don't bother about that.
your impression in my mind from now has no difference some other people else.
or even worse.
a hypocrite, a person who wanted attention, and a person who wanted people to pity you.

had a fruitful sleep last night.
=)
woke up at 12 pm this afternoon.
supposed to go kbox with my sister.
but i woke up too late.
=(
boring day.
eeying for the ilovecuite shirt from hangten.
going to buy one tomorrow with darhdarh.
=)

Tuesday, 16 October 2007

darhdarh is thinking too much nonsensical stuffs today.
and she is a nuisicance to all.
i promised her to blog out the two sentences.
using the word nuisicance.
originated from abigail and jiajia's drama script.

was just a normal school day with normal stuffs going on.
asked mr tan about darhdarh and mine class position.
guess what?!
we both improved.
=)
i got position 6,
darhdarh improved though.
called my mum and told her.
our conversation is as followed.
me: mummy! i improved by one position. so now i am in position 6. got reward not?
mum: so good arh? got reward, 2 pieces of pig skin you want?
yea, and that was my award.
what logic.

head off to vivocity with darhdarh, jiajia and abigail after school.
went to the water place first.
abigail was all wet. =)
the water made my leg itch.
grr.
went to the pet shop.
darhdarh is going to buy the future generation of the 'pomegrante' she saw in the pet shop.
she said that in the next ten years,
she and abigail would buy the future generation. -.-
saw the saggy skin dog.
it's so cute.
=)
went to daiso after the long long 'vacation' in the pet shop.
4 of us bought the charcoal mask.
haha.
than jiajia bought scissors and dunno what.
walked out the daiso shop and saw football and basketball chairs.
because of the chair,
4 of us bought ice-cream and sat there.
how stupid can we be.
visited toys' r us after that.
everyone is crazy over with the toys.
especially the halloween stuffs.
photos are at http://www.loveonlyhim.blogspot.com.

after the long day,
we went home.
took the mrt from harbourfront to dhoby ghourt.
than from dhoby ghourt take to marina bay,
than take all the way to sembawang.
reached home,
ate dinner.
than dad ranged.
i told him that i got position 6,
asked for reward,
than he replied: reward arh? tomorrow than you know lorh.
i knew it was something bad.
=(
mum's friend made the dough for cookies.
a large one.
it would take till chinese new year to finish baking the cookies using our home's oven.
grr.

Sunday, 14 october,2007

went to hougang for breakfast.
yea, was hoping to see him there.
hoping.
he aint easy for me to see.
after that went to my grand-aunt's place.
theplace is hard to find.
its inside the kovan place.
where there's loads of private houses.
went to get mum and i medicine.
after that went to aunt's place to collect something that my uncle gave my mum.
-.-
went to balestiar for dinner.
the farking auntie ear got problem lah,
we asked for 4 people food.
they come wid 7 people food.
wtf.

was waken up by the baby's sound.
grr.
cant she not make any sound early in the morning?
so head off to yishun for breakfast.
the food was not that good.
mum's friend actually recommended us for that.
wtf.
waited for like so damn long,
food was like worse than average.
price is more than average.
that shows how 'perfect' is the friend of mum's taste.
after breakfast went to chongpang.
one farking driver took away our parking lot.
we waited for so long than he just took it away like that.
dad suggested to spit on his car.
he asked me to do it.
wtf.
of cause i din do that.
dad says if the driver was there,
they sure quarell one.
haha.
came back home.
and doing nothing at all.
=(

it is just a normal day.
had haf-day cause of the achievements.
got back all the results.
did badly for all.
but im proud of my dustbin and frog.
mr ____ no eyes than give so low marks for so many people.
dunno who marked it.
grr.
came back home and did my new blog.
=)

Thursday, October 11, 2007

supposed to go bugis with darhdarh.
but end up not feeling well and did not go.
=(
went to raffles town club for dinner.
ate lobster salad,
shark fin's,
bird nest's and so.
cost $1000 plus for 7 people.
that's way too expensive for me.

this is a brand new blog of JOAN
with brand new everything.
from life to gossips.
=)

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